More Kindle experiments

Drawing 6

Drawing 7

I find I am thinking more about drawing during the last few days as I’ve been working on my Kindle. I think this is because working via Kindle rather than traditional art materials is ready to go whenever the moment chooses however the prospect of rummaging through my art box seems too slow. I usually work at a fast pace, as I’ve mentioned before but now I feel I want to do everything now. Right now. Upon reflecting on this idea I feel it is because this full time course is very demanding. I feel as though I am being stretched from researching art therapy techniques, to working with my placement group, working with the school as an institution, keeping up with the University assignments and doing self exploration each Monday with my personal therapist. It is a lot of work that varies however blogging about all these different elements is bringing it all together for me. It does make me think what I would be like without the blog! At the beginning I didn’t necessarily see the benefit but now it is drawing to an end I want to keep it up. A thought I did not anticipate previously.

Perhaps my reluctance to ‘finish’ the blog highlights my reluctance to bring matter to an end.

Do I find endings difficult?

I guess I do to some level. Even ending a job is difficult for me, I find it hard to say goodbye in these situations. For instance, I was a Christmas temp working in retail (I left just before Christmas) and I found it hard to say goodbye to the people that I slipped off without mentioning it was even my last day.

This is another thing I must take to my personal therapy sessions, as this will inevitably impact my therapeutic work with children. How will I be able to end therapy? This is an ending I cannot avoid! I wonder how I will cope with this. I know it isn’t solely about my issues with endings but also that of the client. How will they cope with ending therapy? Will they lash out? Will they be upset? …Angry? …Frustrated? These are all questions I’m considering currently. People are all different so I cannot predict how the ending will go. I will have to again sit with the unknown. The ever so familiar unknown!

I must add that although my work with the Kindle is at the forefront I am still continuing to make paper on the sidelines.