Broken deckle

I've come across a problem involving my practical working method... the deckle I created from a cheap frame has consistently broken almost every time I've used it. Once it gets wet it becomes so fragile adding another element of fragility to my method of working. I wonder why I haven't properly fixed the deckle or indeed made a secure one as the one I have at the moment clearly isn't working well.This makes me reflect on why I want to use a fragile frame as a deckle? Is there something about temporarily fixing it every time, hoping it will carry the weight of  the pulp that allows me to continue. Do I like this fragility in my working process? As I have discussed previously, there is a lot of fragility involved in this process so it baffles me as to why I am putting myself through additional pressure and uncertainty.
Could it be possible that I wish for  the deckle to be fragile so that I can temporarily 'heal' it... there is after all this connection with art therapy as a profession. Perhaps this notion of fixing something, or working with vulnerability could be affecting my working method.