Why have I chosen to work methodically?

I’ve been thinking about the boundaries within the therapeutic relationship, as I’m about to embark on my placement, which is set within a primary school. I feel that I’m working in this very methodical way because I am thinking a lot about the boundaries within art therapy. 

Especially as I’m set to work in a primary school I keep anticipating how I’ll react to children who may display behaviour that could possibly be out of control. 

I feel I am reacting to this feeling within my art practice by controlling the shredded money by working within a very tight, methodical way. There is some comfort in developing this working method; creating paper using a systematic technique creates a reassurance for me, as there is currently a lot of unpredictability at the moment.

I’m using my art practice in a controlled way rather than expressive as I am very open in the experiential workshops, training groups, on this blog and my reflective journal so I feel I cannot work in this expressive, emotional way in my art. I feel it’ll be too much emotion otherwise! I like to keep my art practice very separate aesthetically to the other art making I do on the course.